So you want to be a missionary and see some spontaneous expansion of the church?
Or are you simply feeling a bit unworthy of the task before you?
Now we cannot but observe that there is a great gulf between the training of leaders by Christ and the training of leaders in the hands of these men [the present authority]. Christ trained His leaders in two or three years; these men have been training leaders for more than two or three generations. Christ trained His leaders by taking them with Him as He went about teaching and healing, doing the work which they, as missionaries would do; we train in institutions. He trained a very few whom He was in the closest personal relationship; we train many who simply pass through our schools with a view to an examination and an appointment. Christ trained His leaders in the midst of their own people, so that the intimacy of their relation to their own people was not marred and they could move freely among them as one of themselves; we train in a hothouse, and their intimacy with their own people is so marred that they can never thereafter live as one of them, or share their thought. I have heard of students in theological colleges so ignorant of the religion of their own people that they had to be given lectures on it by foreign teachers. Thus, whether we consider the length of time devoted to the training, or the number of leaders trained, or the character of the training, or its manner, or its method, we perceive at once that the training of leaders of which we speak is something utterly different from that which we set up as the example [Jesus], and to which we appeal as the authority for our practice. – Roland Allen (written in the 1930s, published in 1962)
Certainly food for thought.